Why Do I Yearn to Feel the Creator?

At the core of our existence lies a profound purpose: to uncover and connect with the singular, benevolent force that creates and governs all of reality. This force, the Creator, acts through us, urging us to transcend our inherent nature and align with its selfless, loving essence. Yet, beneath this purpose burns a deeper question — not just why we strive for this connection, but what drives us to yearn for it with such intensity, and what we risk losing if we fail to attain it.

The Heart of Our Yearning

To become like the Creator is no mere task; it is a calling that demands we forsake all other desires, aspirations, and goals. It is a journey worth every sacrifice, for it promises something extraordinary — an experience so profound that it redefines our very existence. The Creator is pure, unconditional love, ceaselessly bestowing life and light, much like the Sun that gives without expecting return. In stark contrast, we are born with an egocentric, self-serving nature, driven by individualistic impulses that pull us away from this divine essence.

This inherent opposition is not a flaw but a purposeful design within reality’s evolutionary process. It is through the constant struggle against our selfish instincts that we come to recognize, verify, and embrace the Creator’s “godly qualities.” This dynamic tension forges within us a unique observer — a spark of consciousness capable of perceiving both the egoistic and altruistic forces, holding them in balance, and weaving them into a singular, harmonious whole. Like two sides of a coin, these opposing qualities reveal the complete picture of reality, unveiling the Creator as the source of all existence.

The Path to Revelation

To embark on this transformative journey, we must first confront the full depth of our egoistic nature — a nature that, left unchecked, consumes and destroys like a cancer. This requires a unique method and a supportive environment, for we cannot directly perceive or comprehend the Creator from within our limited, self-centered perspective. Instead, we learn to cultivate the Creator’s qualities — selfless love and unconditional bestowal — through our connections with others who share the same aspiration.

In a spiritual group, bound by mutual commitment and devotion, we practice these godly qualities against our inherent nature. Here, the Creator is not found in isolation but in the perfect, loving connections we forge with one another. When I lose myself in the desires of others, aspiring only to fulfill their needs with unwavering dedication, I begin to transcend my ego. In this state of mutual guarantee, where each member is surrounded by loyal allies who meet every need with care, we achieve liberation from self-concern. Within this network of selfless love, the Creator is revealed.

The Paradox of Spiritual Reality

Here lies the beautiful yet challenging paradox of spiritual reality: when I cease to exist for myself — when my egoistic desires are restrained and redirected toward serving others — I connect to the source of all life. By relinquishing my self-interest, I become a channel, an artery, through which the Creator’s life-nurturing flow streams to others. When “I” am no longer present, demanding for myself, I receive everything infinitely. Nothing clings to me; I hold onto nothing, passing all fulfillment to others, and in their joy, I find my own, like a parent delighting in their child’s happiness.

In this state, it is not “I” who finds the Creator, but my friends and the world around me who experience this revelation through our shared connection. My own desires, inherently egoistic, become irrelevant. Instead, I gather the aspirations of others, expanding my sense of self to encompass the entire reality. As I serve this collective, I am fulfilled, not for my sake, but for the sake of all.

The Taste of True Life

Even a fleeting glimpse of this selfless love — the Creator’s life-creating force — fills us with an indescribable sense of true life. As long as we maintain this state, we are part of the Creator’s living system, vibrant and whole. But when egoistic intentions creep in, severing this connection, we feel lifeless, like zombies wandering in a world devoid of meaning. This contrast, born of our inherent ego, keeps us grounded as independent observers, capable of witnessing the Creator’s infinite love without dissolving into it entirely.

Yet, even this life within the Creator’s system is not for our own sake. We yearn to be alive not for personal gain but to serve as connectors, channeling the Creator’s love to all of creation. The world, still fractured and crisis-ridden, aches for this integrating force. The unbearable pain of seeing humanity trapped in egoistic isolation fuels our love-sickness, our desperate longing to restore the flow of life to all.

A Motherly Love Without Limits

We yearn to feel the Creator not merely to feel alive ourselves but to become like Him — creators and nurturers of life, driven by an all-encompassing, motherly love that knows no bounds. This love is both a joy and a burden, a radiant happiness tempered by the burning pain of knowing that not all have yet received it. We strive to pass this love to others, to see the world whole and thriving, united by the Creator’s life-affirming force.

In this act, we justify the Creator, affirming His benevolence as the singular force of reality. His contentment lies in our ability to know and feel what it means to create life through godly love, like children who mirror their parent’s essence. The infinite joy we experience in this partnership is matched only by the sorrow of its absence — a contrast that keeps us striving, ever yearning to share this love with all.

The Call to Action

This is why we yearn to feel the Creator: to become vessels of His love, to heal a broken world, and to experience the unparalleled fulfillment of creating life through selfless devotion. The path is arduous, demanding we rise above our nature in a relentless struggle. Yet, the reward is beyond measure — an eternal connection to the source of all life, a partnership with the Creator, and the joy of seeing His love flow through us to every corner of reality.

Let us commit to this sacred purpose, to love without limits, to serve without expectation, and to reveal the Creator’s light in a world that so desperately needs it. For in this act, we find not only the Creator but the truest expression of our humanity.