What does it feel like to be nothing?

Zsolt Hermann
2 min readMar 28, 2023

Question from the Internet:

“What does it feel like to be nothing?”

This sounds like a paradox. After all, if we become “nothing”, how could we feel what “nothingness” means. I think that this is one of the things that worries us about death. We can’t imagine that feeling of becoming “nothing”, but since we also lose our present perception when dying, we will never know what it feels like.

Still, there is a way we could taste, experience, research and attain “nothingness” in a way, that it will not only be a realistic sensation, but it will even feel good.

We can lose our “self”, and our present, 100% egocentric, subjective and individualistic perception of reality. We can do that by gradually entering into and disappearing in the desires, needs and viewpoints of others – like let’s say a mother is lost in her baby after giving birth.

We can purposefully and methodically generate and feel such mutual love and aspiration to unconditionally and selflessly serve each other, that instead of our selves and the reality we used to see and feel from within our introverted bubbles, we enter a completely new dimension of consciousness and perception through the needs and viewpoints of others.

In that state, “I” become nothing, I do not feel myself any longer, but I feel my connection and service towards others, and my whole existence is about this service. And as long as I am connected to others through this selfless and unconditional love and service, “I” remain nothing and instead of my subjective reality I feel and experience a totally unlimited and objective reality, beyond any limitations of time, space or motion.

This is so much so, that even the notion and actual sensation of physical life or death also disappears.

Thus, on the one hand, I become nothing, I do not feel “my” existence any longer. On the other hand, “I” gain a new identity, the altruistic, nullfied and transparent lover and servant that can enter and care for others like one wading into water without causing even the slightest ripple. Then all the forces and energy in reality can flow and streatm through us towards others and we feel, experinec and enjoy reality in its perfect totality.

This is what it truly feels “to be nothing”!

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Zsolt Hermann

I am a Hungarian-born Orthopedic surgeon presently living in New Zealand, with a profound interest in how mutually integrated living systems work.