True, Primordial Fear: The Yearning to Reconnect with the Source of Life
The Fear of Losing Our Connection to Life
True, primordial fear is not fear of external threats, nor is it the fear of physical suffering or loss. It is a far deeper, more essential fear — the terror of losing our connection with the source of life itself, the force that sustains and gives us vitality. It is akin to the instinctive, overwhelming panic of a baby torn away from its mother, losing the very foundation of its existence.
This fear, though largely unconscious in most of us, is a hidden force that constantly drives us. It compels us to search, to seek meaning, to strive for something beyond our immediate physical needs. It is what makes us yearn for something we often cannot define — a longing that emerges as questions about our purpose, the meaning of life, and our place within reality’s vast system.
The Tragedy of Separation and the Search for Return
Perhaps the greatest — though largely unrecognized — tragedy of human existence is the moment we are ejected from the mother’s womb. Even in the most nurturing, loving environment, with the best care from parents and the world, nothing can replace the absolute, immediate, and boundless love and protection we once felt in the womb.
It could even be said that our entire lives are spent trying to recreate those perfect conditions, seeking comfort, security, and love in various ways, even if we do not consciously remember that initial state of wholeness. Yet, deep within, there is an even greater and more fundamental yearning — one that is beyond even the search for physical comfort and emotional security. It is the desire to reconnect with the single life-creating and governing force of reality, the true “womb” from which we emerged.
The purpose of human life is to rediscover this connection — not as passive, dependent receivers, but as conscious, active participants. When we finally reconnect with our source, it must be in a way that allows us to stand as equals, reciprocating the love and care we receive rather than feeling inferior or undeserving.
Directing the Search Toward the Right Goal
This search for the singular life source manifests in many ways — some seek knowledge, others pursue spiritual enlightenment, and many simply feel an unspoken yearning for something greater. However, this vague, seemingly aimless yearning needs to be directed toward the right goal through a precise method and within the right environment.
The more refined and focused this search becomes, the more unbearable the feeling of disconnection grows. It is like the sudden, devastating realization of a small child who has lost his parents in a crowded place — an overwhelming, existential fear. But rather than letting this fear paralyze us, we must use it as fuel to propel us toward reconnection.
Forming the Image of the Life Source
To restore our connection with the source of life, we need to develop an accurate “image” of it. We must gradually come to understand and feel what is missing, what is concealed, and what we need to reveal and attain. However, perception, revelation, and understanding do not come passively — they depend on acquiring similarity with the very thing we seek.
The method that enables us to reconnect with reality’s single life-creating and governing force teaches that this force operates through absolute, pure, selfless, and unconditional love and bestowal. Since we currently exist in a state of self-interest and individualism, the only way to perceive the Creator is to transform ourselves — to develop within us the same qualities of love and bestowal that define Him.
To accomplish this, we require a unique environment, one where individuals learn and practice how to embody these “godly qualities.” Through mutual commitment, they help one another rise above their self-serving nature, forming a collective consciousness that mirrors the Creator’s absolute bestowal.
Turning Fear into Love and Bestowal
This special environment does more than just intensify our yearning to reconnect with the Creator — it also helps us refine our intention behind this yearning. The fear of disconnection from the source of life should not be purely self-centered. Instead, it should awaken within us a desire to reconnect for the sake of the Creator — just as a lost child desperately wishes to be found, not only for his own comfort, but so his mother will no longer cry and worry.
This shift in perception is essential. Within this environment, individuals develop the understanding that their disconnection from the life source causes greater pain to the Creator than the pain they themselves feel from being distant. When this realization deepens, the search for reconnection takes on an entirely new form. It is no longer about alleviating our own suffering but about bringing joy to the Creator by restoring unity with Him.
Overcoming Our Nature with the Help of the Creator
Reaching this state — where our fear is transformed into a yearning to give contentment to the Creator — requires a profound transformation. We must become like the Creator above and against our inherently selfish, egoistic, and individualistic nature.
This process is not easy. It is a battle between two opposing forces: our original self-centered inclination and the selfless, bestowing nature we must acquire. This struggle is purposeful, for we can only perceive, verify, and justify the qualities of love and bestowal by experiencing them in contrast to our natural state.
We cannot achieve this transformation alone. Just as a key must be carefully shaped to fit a specific lock, we must constantly refine ourselves — sharpening and polishing our qualities — until we become perfectly suited to connect with the Creator. This is why we need the method and the environment that enables us to harness special, hidden developing forces from nature.
Creating a Living System That Mirrors the Creator
When we build such an environment, we each begin to act toward one another like healthy cells in a living organism, where each element exists solely for the well-being of the whole while completely forgetting about itself. This collective system becomes like a mother’s womb, providing the ideal conditions for our spiritual rebirth.
At the same time, we are not just passive recipients within this system — we are also active contributors. Each of us must play a dual role:
1. Complete self-nullification — like an embryo that fully surrenders to the nurturing forces of the womb, receiving everything from the environment.
2. Absolute responsibility — like a loving parent who feels total commitment toward the well-being of all others.
This duality is impossible to achieve by human effort alone. We must harness the Creator’s qualities of absolute, selfless love and bestowal so that we can truly sustain this system.
Reaching Our True Human Purpose
This process is deeply emotional. It requires us to open our hearts completely toward one another until we all become fully integrated into the “godly qualities” of love and bestowal. When we reach this state, we begin to feel ourselves as both the beloved creatures of the Creator’s “womb” and the life-giving force that sustains all others.
This is the ultimate purpose of human life:
• To become active, conscious participants in the life-giving force of creation.
• To reconnect seamlessly with the Creator, not as passive recipients, but as equal partners in bestowal.
• To reciprocate the infinite love of the Creator, just as a child reunited with his mother longs only to bring her joy out of boundless love.
Thus, the primordial fear of disconnection — the deepest human fear — becomes the foundation upon which we build the perfect and infinite love that sustains all life.