“Serving a great King”

Zsolt Hermann
6 min readJul 14, 2020

Locked into ourselves

By default, we are locked into an inherently egocentric, subjective consciousness, and perception of reality.

According to our original operating software, we are only capable of loving, serving ourselves.

Any case of giving to others, loving others possible only when our “personal computer” detects suitable selfish satisfaction, rewards from the action.

This is true to any “love” care we know from this world including the “mother’s love” as she considers the baby, the child as her own part, a child remains eternally attached to the mother from the mother’s point of view.

This kind of egotistic, subjective, introverted existence locks us into a small bubble, that is detached from the true reality. We sense from the “big, complete picture” only what we define as important for our own day to day survival, sampling morsels of the whole world that surrounds us.

In order to gain access to a more extensive, objective perception of reality we would need to escape ourselves. But where can we escape to, after all, we can’t just leap into “deep space”?!

Serving an important other

We need to escape “into others”, trying to care for, serve, follow others, rising above the instinctively egocentric, selfish calculations that limit us. We would need to learn how to view, experience reality through the needs, desires, and viewpoints of others in order to acquire a much wider, multi-faceted, objective picture of reality.

While this sounds impossible — going against our inherent nature, serving another who is not connected to us through family, friendship, love — we actually have examples of such a shift in attention even in our present world.

When we identify someone as very important — like a great King, ruler, public figure or celebrity — the chance, ability to get closer to such a person, to do something for such a person, even giving up personal possessions, money, time and comfort (sometimes even accepting humiliation, degradation) for such a connection, it is felt as if we ourselves received a reward. The more one gets permission, the ability to serve, follow a “great and important person” the more privileged, rewarded one feels.

Of course, this is still a selfish, egocentric action, our inherently self-serving, self-justifying nature consenting for this action due to the pleasure, privilege one receives. Still, this already turns us away from ourselves, when we are ready to do anything for another despite not being connected through the usual familial, loving connections.

Still, in order to make the shift complete, to make the connection, service truly selfless, altruistic — completely detached from the ego, making our viewpoint truly objective, undistorted by any selfish calculations — we need to add an extra step.

Wanting to serve others to acquire the ability to serve

In unique, closed, purposefully conducted environments we would need to “decouple” the importance that draws us out of ourselves, from those who we actually serve. In other words, we would need to start unconditionally serving people we would not want to serve otherwise, we do not consider important, definitely not more important than ourselves. Still, we would act towards them as if they were more important than ourselves as such an action would provide us with a different reward.

Again it is a bit like in our world, in order to get to an important person we first need to go through secretaries, agents, so we need to approach, serve, convince them in order to get the passage to the truly important person we want to contact, connect to.

The actual reward we want to get is the actual ability to serve others selflessly, altruistically, unconditionally without any obvious self-serving, self-justifying reason, calculation. We want to achieve such qualities, as then as a result of the achieved similarity of qualities, we could connect to Nature’s perfect system — characterized by the qualities of selfless, altruistic service of others — and start observing, attaining it without the usual egocentric, subjective distortions, limitations.

The truly important “King” we want to serve, get in contact with is this perfect Natural system. But we need those otherwise unimportant others to reach the necessary similarity with Nature’s system as only through similarity can we sense it, get in contact with it.

So we need a unique environment with people we have no natural connection, any instinctive inclination towards, who we want to develop true, selfless and altruistic serve, love for, above and against our instinctive rejection, even repulsion towards to. Our goal is not the actual service, care, and love that we work on towards these people, but through them, we want to practice and achieve the ability to selflessly, unconditionally serve, love in order to reach the desired similarity with Nature’s system.

Dressing into “royal clothes”

This leads us towards a very difficult, unprecedented process where those others I connect to in this unique environment have to become more important than myself and more important than the “King” I want to connect to! Without them becoming the most important in my life I could never develop the necessary selfless, altruistic, unconditional service, and love towards them I need in the first place.

We find ourselves in a “game” where the rules seemingly, constantly change, gradually drawing us in, still using, inviting the ego to participate until finally, the inherently egocentric calculations end with a whimper.

As unique, empirical scientists who developed the necessary, purposeful and practical method write, in truth we can never directly contact, meet, serve the “King”, we can never achieve a direct connection or feedback from Nature’s perfect system, as in that case our inherently egotistic nature would immediately grabbed the reward for itself, immediately severing our connection from the selfless, altruistic system.

Instead, we can have a “glimpse” at the King from behind, more precisely I am given the opportunity to “clothe into royal clothing”, to dress into Nature’s perfect, “godly qualities” of selfless, altruistic, unconditionally serving, loving intentions above and against my own, inherently selfish, egotistic, distrusting and hateful inclinations.

By “dressing into Natures godly qualities” we can start acting, existing “like the King” and through this feel, sense what the “King is like”, how Nature’s perfect system operates as its qualities seemingly operate through us.

Flying with borrowed wings

This is not something we can do on our own after all, nobody can rise above oneself, as nobody can lift oneself by pulling one’s own hair.

Even within the unique, mutually committed, mutually supportive, mutually complementing environment we can generate only the insatiable, intolerable need for such a “second nature”, supernatural — above instinctive nature — ability. But when we achieve such a breaking point when this becomes the most important thing in life for us, we receive assistance.

Since Nature’s system and its evolutionary plan actually wants us to reach this ability, the similarity with the system, as this is predetermined in Nature’s evolution as our unique, evolutionary Human purpose, when in that unique environment we reach that irrepressible need, yearning, Nature’s evolution — as if waiting for our request — awakens a so far hidden ability, software in us that leads, develops us towards similarity with nature — above and in contrast to our original nature.

This is a very actual, realistic, tangible sensation as when it happens, we very sharply, obviously feel that we act in a way we could never act by ourselves. We feel as if we were “given wings”, the ability to rise above our original egotistic gravity, and weightlessly, selfless, unconditionally act towards others as of we did not actually exist for our own sake.

As a result — in contrast to the original, egocentric, subjective paradigm — we can now clearly stabilize, recognize, further develop a new consciousness, perception — in similarity with Nature’s perfect system.

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Zsolt Hermann

I am a Hungarian-born Orthopedic surgeon presently living in New Zealand, with a profound interest in how mutually integrated living systems work.