Feeling True Life

We are born into this world and feel existence through our own desires.

Different desires and necessities awaken in us, and our whole life is about chasing fulfillment for these desires and necessities.

We don’t feel others or the world around us; we only feel as much as we need the world and others to fulfill our necessities.

This is not true life; it’s like a zombie-like existence, living between death and true life. We sense some kind of movement, some kind of life around us, but it is only about ourselves and how much we can fulfill ourselves.

When we finally die, everything disappears, and there is no continuation in this kind of life.

We are disconnected from others and nature because we don’t have the capacity to sense what is outside of ourselves. We are closed into our own endless cycle of feeling and fulfilling our own desires.

Moreover, we act against others by competing and fighting for resources and fulfillment, trying to consume everything we can. We are all acting like cancer, consuming and destroying everything.

As a result, humanity is now on the brink of a total collapse and loss of life because we do not know how to actually live.

We do not know how to live like nature, where all elements and parts are mutually integrated and complement each other.

To survive, we must learn a totally different kind of existence, where we don’t exist only for our own sake but become healthy cells in a mutually integrated and complementing humanity, which can also integrate into nature’s system in a similar way.

We must practice and learn this different kind of existing and behaving in special environments where a small number of people who already feel the necessity to learn and achieve this, assemble to practice natural selfless and unconditional mutual acceptance and service of others.

This new life is not about providing life for ourselves but about providing existence and fulfillment for others.

We must practice this above and against our original selfish, egotistic, and individualistic nature until we reach a state where, at least for a moment, we can totally forget about ourselves and exist through the desires, fulfillments, and viewpoints of others.

Even if, just for a moment, we can forget about ourselves and don’t feel our own desires and thoughts, we suddenly fall into a completely different space of existence, where there is nothing about myself, but I can explore and roam in a reality that is comprised of the desires, thoughts, and viewpoints of others.

This gives us a glimpse of a totally different, unlimited, and eternal kind of existence where the usual coordinates of time, space, and movement don’t exist because those coordinates are only important for our self-fulfillment.

The more we let go of self-centeredness, the more we start to feel reality’s intricate, fully integrated, and mutually loving and serving system from the inside as we become similar to it. The more we think of others, the more we integrate into reality’s perfect system, feeling the forces and intentions that operate there.

Then, we start to understand that the creation and nurturing of life is based on a single, all-encompassing force field characterized by selfless and unconditional love and service outside of the self.

There is no self but only a fully integrated system, existing on total subjugation and selfless service of elements serving each other.

In order to feel this system and become active partners with it, we must learn to exist outside of ourselves, thinking only about others and fulfilling the whole system.

I don’t feel my own fulfillment anymore; I only feel and observe the fulfillment of others.

My reward and punishment, all my good or bad feelings, are only related to how much I connect to this system and how much I am capable of facilitating others’ fulfillment.

I don’t have anything to actually give, as I am just a receiver, an empty vessel, yet I can provide a gateway for the fulfillment of others.

In this way, I become like a capillary or an artery within reality’s single living body, letting life flow through me toward others. While I can choose to grab everything for myself, as my original egotistic self-fulfilling software tells me, I choose to let go of this instinctive inclination and become a pure, transparent pipeline.

Everything flows through me towards others; I accept anything only if I can pass it on without holding on to anything apart from my basic necessities to exist.

Moreover, I only want to exist for being this transition or pipeline toward others; if I cannot fulfill this purpose, I do not want to exist anymore.

This is a new kind of existence, a new sense of life, where I feel life and love streaming through me towards the whole system.

I start to feel the single source, force-field, the engine within the system creating life, pumping necessities and resources, like the brain and heart of a body.

The more I’m integrated into the system, the more I understand and feel the balance and homeostasis that encompass the system — the foundation of life.

I associate this balance with the system’s happiness or contentment, as all conditions for creating and nurturing life are fulfilled.

My happiness and purpose no longer come from self-fulfillment but from facilitating and feeling this total contentment and perfect balance, which provides immeasurable and infinite pleasure.

I don’t attribute this fulfillment to myself but feel happiness from the system’s contentment, knowing it can operate and create life in the most optimal way.

I’m grateful for the chance to sense this balance and homeostasis, even for a second, to know the system is perfect.

Whether I continue to exist in the system doesn’t matter, as I was already given the chance to attain and justify the perfection of the system in its entirety.

On the other hand, if I can maintain this attitude of not wanting anything for myself, allowing resources and love to stream through me to others, I am permitted to remain within the system, facilitating perfect existence and fulfillment for everything and everyone outside of me.

The feeling of life, my right to exist, is intimately tied to and dependent on me only focusing on facilitating the most optimal function of reality’s single, all-integrated, and mutually complementing system.