Fear as a Vessel: Transforming Egoism into Bestowal
The Role of Fear in Creating the Right Vessel
True spiritual transformation begins with fear — not an ordinary fear of external dangers or personal losses, but a deep, internal fear: the fear that everything we receive and experience will be directed towards fulfilling our own selfish desires. This fear serves as the preparation for the right vessel, as it leads us to recognize the destructive nature of egoism and compels us to seek a higher, selfless intention.
The correct vessel is not the desire to receive, but the intention to bestow — the ability to receive only in order to pass it on to others, much like a heart that pumps life-giving blood throughout the body. This transformation, however, does not happen naturally. It requires conscious effort to rise above our innate, self-centered inclinations and construct an entirely new vessel, one that operates above and against our original egocentric nature.
The Transition: Fear as a Refining Force
The shift from a self-centered existence to one of bestowal is a deeply painful and scrutinizing process. It begins with recognizing the negative and destructive qualities embedded in our original egoistic intentions. At first, this realization brings despair, as we see how helpless we are against these ingrained tendencies. Even when we grow to hate and abhor our selfish nature, we find ourselves incapable of escaping it.
This sharp, desperate, and intolerable recognition leads to the right kind of prayer — a genuine plea for transformation. This prayer is not for personal gain but for the ability to rise above egoism and receive the new, altruistic qualities that exist within the higher governing force of reality. Only when we reach this extreme level of fear and rejection toward our inherent nature do we become worthy of drawing the developing forces that enable real change.
Covering the Ego: The Path to Becoming Like the Creator
Before we can develop qualities of selfless love and bestowal, we must first learn how to cover and conceal our original selfish desires. It is only after we have successfully restricted our ego that we can begin to build the opposite, altruistic qualities within ourselves. This transformation gradually brings us closer to the Creator — not because we seek personal enlightenment, but because we begin to resemble His singular nature of selfless love and bestowal.
The key to this process is fear. The fear of remaining in our inherently egoistic state is what propels us forward, acting as a springboard toward acquiring new, “godly” qualities. Without this fear — without the deep, visceral rejection of our self-centeredness — we would have no urgency, no driving force pushing us to transform.
Elevating Fear to the Fear of the Creator
The fear of our egoistic nature must evolve into a higher level of fear — the fear of the Creator. This does not mean fearing divine punishment; rather, it is the fear of being disconnected from the singular life-giving force of reality. It is the awareness that if we remain attached to our original nature, we will never achieve similarity with the Creator, and thus, we will remain separate from the source of life.
As we progress in this transformation, fear becomes more refined and elevated. The greater our similarity to the Creator, the more we fear losing that connection. This fear serves as a holding force, securing our bond with the Creator and protecting us from regressing into egoism.
Paradoxically, the growing contrast between our original nature and the newly acquired qualities of bestowal does not weaken us — it strengthens our perception of the Creator. The more we fear falling back into egoism, the more clearly we perceive the loving, bestowing nature of the Creator and feel the immense gap between what we were and what we are becoming.
Defining Ourselves Through Our Greatest Deficiency
We are defined by our most overwhelming deficiency — the one desire that governs our thoughts, actions, and direction in life. Our inherent matter is the desire to receive pleasure and fulfillment for ourselves. This driving force cannot be erased or replaced. However, what can be changed is the intention behind it.
Instead of acting based on our personal, egoistic desires and viewpoints, we can begin to absorb the desires and viewpoints of others. Expanding our perception in this way allows us to develop a completely new approach to existence, one that is not driven by self-interest but by the intention to love and bestow.
Ultimately, it is the intention we place over our desires that defines us. If fear toward our inherently self-centered nature awakens within us, we can use that fear as a catalyst to develop the opposite intention — the intention to exist solely for the sake of others and the Creator.
The Evolution of Fear into Love
At first, our fear is simply fear of our own destructiveness. But as we progress, a new kind of fear emerges: the fear of failing to love and bestow upon others. This new fear gradually transforms into true love, and through that love, we begin to recognize and attain the Creator.
These fears — and the process of overcoming them — can only develop in a unique environment. This environment consists of fully committed individuals, devoted to achieving true love and bestowal among one another. The greater their mutual efforts, the clearer they reveal the destructive qualities of their inherent nature.
Creating an Environment That Accelerates Transformation
Within this environment, people gradually open up to one another, exposing their deepest desires and intentions. It is as if they are standing naked before each other, with no barriers, no masks, no false pretenses. This level of intimacy amplifies the fear, as each person becomes hyper-aware of their own inner corruption.
Over time, they develop the ability to “see” into each other’s hearts, feeling and sensing each other’s desires and intentions with absolute clarity. This creates an overwhelming responsibility — knowing that one’s egoistic nature is exposed before others, there is no place to hide.
As the group’s efforts intensify, unique developing forces begin to assist them, making this intimacy, openness, and mutual responsibility more tangible and real. Yet, at the same time, the ego fights back, employing every possible tactic to disrupt the growing integration and unity.
However, with the right method and a clear focus on the goal, even the resistance of the ego can be used as fuel — a force that, when overcome, propels the group closer to the Creator. This is only possible when mutual commitment and mutual responsibility remain constant and unbreakable.
Nullifying the Ego and Awakening a New Intention
The intensifying fear — the fear of harming others, of contaminating the unity with selfish intentions — leads to a complete willingness to nullify oneself. It is at this point that a person becomes ready to receive new intentions, ones that are installed not by personal effort, but by reality’s unique developing forces.
Throughout this entire process, one fundamental reminder must remain above everything else:
• The ultimate purpose of building these mutual connections…
• The ultimate purpose of experiencing fear toward our egoistic nature…
• The ultimate purpose of learning to care for others in the group…
…is solely to recognize and attain reality’s single governing force.
This goal must become so important, so all-consuming that no other aspiration in life can compare. Every challenge, every struggle, and every fear must serve only one purpose — to bring us closer to the Creator by making us similar to Him.
When this goal becomes our singular focus, fear is no longer something to escape — it becomes the vessel that carries us to true bestowal, true love, and ultimate unity with the Creator.